I feel so lethargic! ITE is cumming to an end, soon.I have so many plans in mind, like plan to go on a holiday with my twin, redecorating my room!, Upgrade my photography skills and also my portfolio and so freaking many nonsense things.
blurgh.
Anyways see you guys on twitter.
Suddenly, i dont feel like blogging.
Im more active on twitter then on my fb nor my wordpress.
http://twitter.com/#!/giraffenoodle
Do follow me 🙂
Anyhow, i just got home from Fadz’s place. One word that could describe how i feel, NERVOUS sia. Until i sweat. 😦
DAMNNN~
Plus I’ve been having super wierd dreams lately. One extremely wierd dreams i had was the one i had yesterday. I got married to Fadz at BPP (Bukit Panjang Plaza) with only his friends around, and before that i dreamnt that Fadz passed away.I know right….., scarry or what?! anyways, ive been working like crazy. pffttttt. School is ending real real soon. Wish me luck. 🙂
I just got back my lappy:)
So many things happened since i last blog. Anyways, Im graduating soon. In like less than 3 months time. Part of me feels excited, and the other part just feel so stressed up and sad. Lesser time working and more time doing all sorts of photo shoot and more editing of pictures. DAMNNNN!
anyways see you guys on twitter for more frequent updates 🙂
Dad,
I miss you so badly. I still do dream about you every now and then but not as often as the last few months. I can never imagine living without you,but now…….. Up till today I still miss you like crazy but I know there’s nothing practical I can do but to keep praying for you . I wished you know how pressured I feel sometimes with my life, and how some small things could make me happy. I hope I’m still ure “daddy’s little girl”.
I can only imagine how lonely Ibu feels. She still cries after prayers and I know those tears is how she expresses her feelings towards you. Dont you worry, Me, Fir and Haikal is taking good care of her.
I have so much to say but I just can’t express the way I feel here.
WE love and miss you so much Ayah.
😥
so what am i gonna do after i graduate?
I have no F***ing idea broo~?
Well if i get into a polytechnic then that would be great! but what if I don’t??, then maybe i should apply for private diploma? and that meannnnsss i have to save up money for it., which means i either need to start saving now or start working like shit after graduation. DAMNN! it’s not like i have to depend on my Mum. Well u know its not as easy as it was before. It hit me hard when i was doing house chores thinking bout it. DAMNNN! this really means i have to start bucking up and really prepare for my portfolio NOWW and then start sending it to some f***ing Graphic companies. BUT who the hell would wanna hire me MANN?, Like seriously, think about it?, I only have an O’level cert with really REALLY bad grades and also have an experience in working as a Barista and a Camp Counselor. I don’t even have an experience in working for the design Industry?! How do hell am i gonna survive here man?. I dreamt to be an art teacher but with my shitty grades? like seriously, for all i know i need to at least have a F***ing Diploma to qualify to be a teacher.
DAMMMN IT MANNNN!
I love how Pepper & Charlie shows how they appreciate each other in a silly way.
I just finish watching the season finale of Pepper Dennis, AGAIN~
I use to watch it everyday on Channel 5 in 2006 , and i loved it ever since.
For some its just another trashy show but i like it.
It’s just something that i could relate to myself sometimes 🙂
And i still believe that fairytale exist and that nothing can ever change that, because i know I’m living in one.
I cant stop looking at it. And the more i look at it the more i feel so worthless. I wish u were here to tell me all the things that i wanna hear again. I KNOWWWW~ .
Well i know that i have every right to feel jealous about everything. I know that writing this here wouldnt make things any better, i just couldnt tell u face to face because i have no guts to do so. Yes im a coward, A BIG FAT ONE. Honestly i just dont want to care about how i feel but at some point of time i feel that the problem sometimes its not u, its her. Well most of the time is because ure simply caring and friendly and nice to everyone. But i shoulnt care because she’s ure best friend __________. I know i dont care but it bothers me so much everytime we all meet. It was just because of what she asked you on the first day we met. yes long time now uh. hah. i just feel so stupid for keeping it all this while la. the way she talk to u and everyting. Im just jealous because of so many things now, like how u talk to her just like how u talk to me, telling her to go eat medicine when she’s sick. aiyah for a long time now, ive been just telling myself to stop thinking bout it too much, its just how i feel and i know that to you its nothing. well whatever.
I’ll just keep it, lock it, and throw it.
I even felt lonely when i have to walk myself to the toilet alone wondering around while my foot hurts and i felt like this just sucks when every toilet on every floor i went to was being blocked by cleaners due to cleaning in progress. That was when i knew i just couldnt take anymore of this and just left. Then i kept again till i couldnt take it anymore and i burst out all the way when we were on our way home.
I had fun. Thank you and Happy 15 Months Anniversary.
This might just be some same old mood swings that i have. I’m visiting daddy now, i miss him, maybe he’ll understands me better.bye.
FUCK YOU BOOKWORM CASHIERS,
YOU MOTHERFUCKING ASSHOLES!,
PIECE OF SHIT!
YOU GUYS DESERVE ALL THIS SHIT COMING FROM ME!.
heh
I feel better after writing all this vulgarities. Im not angry because i know i have to work tomorrow, im angry because of the fact that my section head and the seniors are all such a big A-HOLES!
“SO YOU WANT MY FUCKIN MC EY? heh dont worry, I”ll fuckin throw it at ure fuckin face yea?!”
hahahaha i like that accent., nahhhhhh.
You must be wondering why do i have so much anger in me huh… Me, my boyfriend and a friend of ours just watched a show, The Crazies. Hell yea!, after that show i’m kindda like all this zombie stuff and for the record this is my first time that i actually enjoyed watching a show like this. All those suspense, massive killing and lots of brutalities was WORTH MY MONEYYYY, i can safely say that i enjoyed every bit of it. Go watch it!
seeya, gonna start killing someone.
🙂
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